In summer mode :)

Summer Reading List:
The Fault in our stars - John Green
Basic Economics - Thomas Sowell
Looking for Alaska - John Green
Have a Little Faith - Mitch Albom

Dyed my hair yesterday with Loreal's Ultra Light Blond Dye and this is what happened :)

Oh yea and finally accepted into RBS! My life is not over haha XD 

Famarryy

Maaay-pleee Stttt-oryy

DiDi ♥

At Grandparent's House

Cucumber, Jello with Vinegar Salad :d
Pork Dumplings 

My Aunt Kelly's dog BaoBei

What's on my mind

On some days I would just like to disappear, to sit in the sun and just enjoy the breeze. That is whenever I'm frustrated. Although I'll be turning 20 in 4 months I still feel like a kid; most definitely treated like one. How am I supposed to become independent if I never get a chance to give it a try. I'm sure I've been given a lot more privileges nowadays, more so than before. I mean at least I'm allowed out of the house, so thats a start right? It's funny how every time I go hangout with friends I'll get kidnapped and how when I ask for the car, it's automatically going to come back totalled. I'm sure you know I'm not that irresponsible. But of course things happen. Like always when it comes down to the end, I understand you are just being a mother and obviously you care about my safety. However there is so much I can take. And you must know I hate arguing, especially when it is pointless. You just always end up hearing what you want to hear and none of my reasoning sinks in. Sigh. Lol ironically I sound just like a kid.

Everything has an expiration date. I've given relationships a try and it didn't turn out as I'd even hoped for it to be like. But it was still an experience that I don't regret having gone through. It has definitely changed my point of view on many aspects in life and all that cliche stuff. However I've decided I surely don't want to be in another one anytime soon. I guess it would get lonely but at least its better than talking to someone who's always too busy to listen. But now that there is someone who does, it doesn't feel quite right. Maybe I'm just being picky, who knows.

When Nothing Makes Sense

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/when-nothing-makes-sense/

So my sophomore year had just ended and I did pretty well. Although not as well as I had hoped :T Hopefully it's good enough for RBS. *crosses fingers* But now that all the stress, studying and essays are all over, I'm left with so much free time. But I feel too lazy to go out, what a major dilemma. I should probably start moving and get a job. Yep that's the plan for now.

An Interesting Film To Watch

A review written by Michael Brooke:
Two stories, two lovelorn cops, two objects of desire: one a big-time heroin dealer in deep trouble with her boss after the cargo disappears, the other a seriously flaky take-out waitress who inadvertently gets hold of the keys to her admirer's apartment, all shot in a breathless kaleidoscope of color and hand-held camera work to create a mesmerizing portrait of Hong Kong in the 1990s. 

Quotes (ongoing)

It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell. 

- Buddha 

“Once upon a time, I dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was myself. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man.” 
- Zhuangzi, Butterfly as Companion: Meditations on the First Three Chapters of the Chuang-Tzu

Things I miss (ongoing)

The smell of flower shops
The feeling of sunlight on my skin on a breezy day
The silence I hear when I lay in the snow and stare at the grey skies
The taste of my favorite summer fruits
Reading in the shade
Late night star gazing
Reading the whole day

Ukulele Time ^_^

My Ukulele arrived in the mail! So da happy XD
Can't wait to try out new songs. So far I've been working on "My heart will go on" from Titanic and obviously, "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz :P http://uketabs.com/tabs/im-yours/

On a side note, I found this super cool easy photo editing site :)
http://pixlr.com/express/

Things to Remember

1. Always ask for more money at your job, even if you don’t think you deserve it.
2. Try to be kind to the people who are rude to you. It’s not personal, they’re just having a really bad day/month/life.
3. If you believe in opportunity, opportunity will present itself.
4. Sometimes when things are really bad, you just have to go through the motions of your life until they get better.
5. Surround yourself by only the books, images, music and people that make you happy.
6. Your ability to speak honestly about your weaknesses, failures and disappointments is your greatest strength.
7. Nothing is more fulfilling than helping other people.
8. There really are plenty of fish in the sea.
9. Wear sunscreen or a hat when you’re in strong sunlight.
10. You need to take the big risk, even if it scares the living crap out of you.
11. Sometimes water is thicker than blood.
12. Don’t worry about living a life that looks good on paper.
13. Be careful about confiding personal information. Relationships change.
14. Go to events and parties and lectures you have no interest in going to.
15. Ask yourself what you want. Then take the necessary steps to get it.
16. Don’t stay in a bad relationship because of the anticipated misery of a breakup.
17. When you have a headache, drink a glass of water before you do anything else. It might just be dehydration.
18. Do what comes naturally to you, it’s what you’ll have the most success at.
19. Be thankful that things you wished for didn’t come true. Know that this will happen again.
20. Let yourself be happy when you’re happy.
21. Force yourself to overcome your fears.
22. Remember that no one else has it figured out either.

Taken from http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/30-other-things-every-woman-should-know-by-30/

Learning

So in my Chinese Classics class today, our teacher separated us into groups to discuss the purpose for learning. Throughout the year we learned about the confucian values of essentially how to learn. One of my classmate's view on learning was that it was something inevitable that we do so that one day we can become successful and then afterwards seek to pursue an interest. I think that we should instead alter our approach towards learning. It shouldn't be something dreaded, it also shouldn't feel like an obligation. It should be fun and amusing. Depending on the topics, it maybe be mundane, not everything will spark an interest.  However one should still look forward to eduction and the experiences it brings. Even if it doesn't lead to the ideal lifestyle you may have in mind. Being educated and well rounded gives a person character and personality. It changes your perspectives in life and allows you to appreciate more. One of my other group members had a rather pessimistic point of view. He asked what the reason for learning is if once have a job the people there would tell you that whatever you learned in the past was wrong and this is how it should be done. It is a somewhat narrow approach. Let me ask then why do we value learning so much if its not important. If people care enough to criticize our educational system then it must be worthy of attention. He probably didn't mean that we don't need to go to college or have good education. But I can definitely sense that he feels forced to go to class and would rather start working as soon as possible. That is pretty normal, I'm sure everyone has experienced it some time in their college years. Nonetheless, if he were to change his approach and view point, it will make the rest of his years here more enjoyable. Learning is such a broad topic, it doesn't only pertain to education, we just happened to focus on that aspect of it. To wrap things up, learning is a process, one that will last a lifetime. It is something we all need and have the ability to do. It takes time and needs to be cultivated. Even so it is something worthwhile.
I kind of got lost with my point in writing this post somewhere in the middle of it. I'm a bit stressed for finals so I felt like blogging lawll.

Speechless

I've come to see that I really don't know what I'm doing. I am no longer under the impression that I have control over my life. Yesterday most definitely felt like a dream, one that I wouldn't want to wake up from but also scared to live in. I really dislike how I can be so easily swayed and I don't know how to fix it or even where to start. What should I do? This time around, I really have no clue.

“Love is a canvas furnished by nature and embroidered by imagination.”

— Voltaire

Currently having the quarter life crisis

Up until now, I thought I knew what I wanted to do. I believed that as long as I found the right keys, the door would open for me. Except I left out a very valuable yet obvious fact. I didn't work hard enough to find the key I want. I always wish to be exceptional at something, yet I haven't tried exceptionally hard at anything. Here I am just trudging along, sluggishly. It's about time I wake up and force myself to focus. To devote time into things that do matter, that will ultimately determine my future. No more shall I waste time on trivial matters.

Time to start anew

An unpublished post from a month ago....

This whole week, I've been in an out-of-body-like state. I go to class mindlessly, zoning in and out of reality? not so sure. Everything seems so bland to me. Nothing quite sparks my interest anymore, nothing to look forward to. I need a new feeling of wholeness in my life, but I don't know where to find it. Whenever I'm alone, which is most of the time, I've realized that I feel a sense of security, probably because it is when I'm most relaxed. I don't have to constantly worry about what others think of me. At times I find myself if moments of clarity or that everything coming at me just seems so real and raw.
And my draft ends here. Rereading this, I find it silly but rather gloomy. Actually I've reread many of my posts months after I post them and I edit them sometimes. In doing this, it gives me a chance to reflect upon myself. Since I am no longer affected by the emotions of my previous state, I can then proceed to analyze why in fact I felt that way. Because I recently watched a chinese drama, I will finish the rest of this post in chinese, lol randomness. 我所看到的都一点都不像我的风格。现在的我对人身的看法也变了，看得比较乐观。我比以前有根多信心去面对困难。想要的东西就要努力的竞取。说道这，或则我将来看到这个post也会觉得我以前很傻。但，我一直没变地觉得， 只要我每天一步一步的往前走，我的日子就会越来越美好。
p.s. The way I speak in chinese is quite weird indeed. Don't worry, I'm working on it :]

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
-Dr. Seuss

I’ll Cover Yours If You’ll Cover Mine

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/ill-cover-yours-if-youll-cover-mine/

To Make You Feel My Love - Kris Allen

To Make You Feel My Love- Kris Allen

Wedneday - January 11, 2011

Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal

PLUS

The Truth

There is this one person I really love. We get into fights often, but they're usually resolved pretty quickly. However, sometimes it can drag on for hours. It's the one thing I hate the most, arguing. Unless there is a point I can get across, then there is really no use for such negativity. I'd have to say, usually, I'm willing to take a step back if it is for the better, however sometimes, when the person is as stubborn as a mule, then there's nothing I can really do. There are so many things that she does that aggravate me. Oh her constant nagging, my god how much I hate it. But now, things have changed. I've gone to college, spent less time at home and it's helping me realize just how much I miss her. With her current condition, it's ever more difficult, but it's okay, I can do it. I have to resist, I have to keep her happy as long and as much as possible. I have to swallow my anger. Because one day she will leave me. Possibly earlier than I will expect. I hope that day won't come for a long long time. May miracles happen.

Bryant Park - The Holiday Shops

1. The Piano Guy at Washington Square Park
2. Cafe Espanol- 172 Bleecker St # A New York, NY 10012-1455
3. Caldo Gallego
4. Tilapia
5. Flan
6. Bryant Park Christmas Tree

Eddie :3

This is Didi, short for Eddie :) I just got him about a week ago. He's absolutely adorable but can't stay still for just one teeny tiny picture. Being a shih-malt he has light grey ears, a brown patch around his eyes and a mix of white, grey, and caramel fur. I foresee many troubles from this little guy. Just like how he left a present for me this morning. Such a nice doggie -_______-

So apparently I look constipated in this picture...thats just... great lolls. Any attempts at being cute are now out the window -.-

One In A Million - Neyo

One In A Million

Serene Rides on the Ski Lifts

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room - John Mayer

A talk with a friend left me thinking about some things. I don't have much friends who I've talked to about more personal feelings or thoughts. I'm usually the listener and I enjoy helping people think things through, because I learn from these stories and in turn gain insight and reasoning to my own problems. However, I never know what to say to make them feel better about their situation :T. I'm always more comfortable with one on one conversations, but I guess it also depends on who I'm talking to.

This trip was fun :) (except for the broken window part ahhaaa) Hope we go again next year.
Slow Dancing In A Burning Room (Album Version)


Most uncomfortable position to sleep in lol