May 18, 2012

What's on my mind

On some days I would just like to disappear, to sit in the sun and just enjoy the breeze. That is whenever I'm frustrated. Although I'll be turning 20 in 4 months I still feel like a kid; most definitely treated like one. How am I supposed to become independent if I never get a chance to give it a try. I'm sure I've been given a lot more privileges nowadays, more so than before. I mean at least I'm allowed out of the house, so thats a start right? It's funny how every time I go hangout with friends I'll get kidnapped and how when I ask for the car, it's automatically going to come back totalled. I'm sure you know I'm not that irresponsible. But of course things happen. Like always when it comes down to the end, I understand you are just being a mother and obviously you care about my safety. However there is so much I can take. And you must know I hate arguing, especially when it is pointless. You just always end up hearing what you want to hear and none of my reasoning sinks in. Sigh. Lol ironically I sound just like a kid.

Everything has an expiration date. I've given relationships a try and it didn't turn out as I'd even hoped for it to be like. But it was still an experience that I don't regret having gone through. It has definitely changed my point of view on many aspects in life and all that cliche stuff. However I've decided I surely don't want to be in another one anytime soon. I guess it would get lonely but at least its better than talking to someone who's always too busy to listen. But now that there is someone who does, it doesn't feel quite right. Maybe I'm just being picky, who knows.

May 12, 2012

When Nothing Makes Sense

So my sophomore year had just ended and I did pretty well. Although not as well as I had hoped :T Hopefully it's good enough for RBS. *crosses fingers* But now that all the stress, studying and essays are all over, I'm left with so much free time. But I feel too lazy to go out, what a major dilemma. I should probably start moving and get a job. Yep that's the plan for now.

May 6, 2012

An Interesting Film To Watch

A review written by Michael Brooke:
Two stories, two lovelorn cops, two objects of desire: one a big-time heroin dealer in deep trouble with her boss after the cargo disappears, the other a seriously flaky take-out waitress who inadvertently gets hold of the keys to her admirer's apartment, all shot in a breathless kaleidoscope of color and hand-held camera work to create a mesmerizing portrait of Hong Kong in the 1990s. 

Quotes (ongoing)

It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell. 
- Buddha 
“Once upon a time, I dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was myself. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man.” 
ZhuangziButterfly as Companion: Meditations on the First Three Chapters of the Chuang-Tzu

May 4, 2012

Things I miss (ongoing)

The smell of flower shops
The feeling of sunlight on my skin on a breezy day
The silence I hear when I lay in the snow and stare at the grey skies
The taste of my favorite summer fruits
Reading in the shade
Late night star gazing
Reading the whole day

May 2, 2012

Ukulele Time ^_^

My Ukulele arrived in the mail! So da happy XD
Can't wait to try out new songs. So far I've been working on "My heart will go on" from Titanic and obviously, "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz :P

On a side note, I found this super cool easy photo editing site :)