Speechless

I've come to see that I really don't know what I'm doing. I am no longer under the impression that I have control over my life. Yesterday most definitely felt like a dream, one that I wouldn't want to wake up from but also scared to live in. I really dislike how I can be so easily swayed and I don't know how to fix it or even where to start. What should I do? This time around, I really have no clue.

“Love is a canvas furnished by nature and embroidered by imagination.”

— Voltaire